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Here's a secret:

I was never happy.

It's true.
I don't know why. Bad things have happened to me in life, but bad things have happened to everyone, right?
I had good moods, but they disappeared quickly, for no reason.

Most people were happy on default, I was sort of numb on default, never really happy but never really sad.

It bothered me.

Then, I met you, and now, I'm happy on a default.
The only time I'm unhappy is when I'm arguing with you.
That's why I make effort to resolve arguments that aren't even my fault, that's why I do my very best to cheer you up when you're in a bad mood, because I know if I don't you'll take it out on me anyway.
I don't mind, because with loving you, I found something I didn't even know was missing.

I'm terrified of losing you, because I don't want to be sad again.